Wednesday, April 4, 2012
Today Brin had her cardio check up. She is 7 months post BDG. Wow how time flies?! She is so amazing. It feels like I just brought her home and now she will soon have her first birthday. Last night I watched the season finale for 19 kids and counting. Michelle Duggar went for her sono and they were so excited to see the baby and the camera man was going to find out the sex. Sigh.....the baby had no heart beat and three days later after having labor induced she gave birth to a tiny baby girl. I cried uncontrollably. My heart stopped for them just as mine did the day of my own sono for Brin and hearing the words "something is wrong with her heart". I am beyond blessed with this baby girl. When I was still pregnant so many horrible things and sad not knowings went through my mind. I regret every bit of it. I would not trade her for the world. I am lucky to have such a precious baby that changed my life. I mourned my healthy baby but she is with me. My heart hurt for the Duggars loss but it reminded me to be so thankful. As of right now Binny is biting and slobbering on my nose. What a perfect moment. The Lord giveth and the Lord taketh away. I don't know what will happen tomorrow, next week, a year from now or twenty but I will not take any of it for granted.